I'm struggling for sth.我正为某事而内心纠结.
struggle
1.奋斗; 斗争[(+for/against/with)][+to-v]
The old man has been struggling with illness.这位老人一直在与病魔斗争.
2.努力; 使劲; 挣扎[(+for)][+to-v]
She struggled to keep back the tears.她努力忍住泪水.
The baby struggled in its mother's arms.婴儿在母亲怀抱中挣扎.