all right,to be honest,what u ask about is beyond my imagination.maybe it is a miracle for me to meet u.thank goodness.we have no choice to change the situation even if we know it is not the best choice for both of us.All that is real is rational,just accept,which may make us feel a little comfortable.u have many friends who u can rely on when u at loss,who have the same favor as u,not like me,a lonely child,bury myself into mathematics,thinking about all kinds of problem,left me little time to think about other things,a stupid measured,isn't it?maybe i do not have enough courage to face them.Go ahead,life will guide us,no matter how gorgeous the past is,we can not go back,can not have a second choice.u know much about myself,know what I like,know what I dislike,know my strange habit,however,I know little about u,and always make u feel unhappy,do not know what u really need,maybe Mr white is good at this,just as what u told me in that day when u lost ur wallet.Since u have made ur decision,it is not proper to think about what if,but to cherish what u have now.maybe I have advantage over him in some aspect,however,he is better than me in taking care of u.there is no right or wrong in this affairs,but willing or unwilling,life is simple,it is ourselves who made it so complex,all the standard about our life is sat by no one else but ourselves.I think what I really need is a peace life,become a teacher or maybe a professor,for I lost the chance to become a doctor,if I have to choice the thing I regret most,maybe losing the chance to become a doctor ranking first.High school time is the happiest time I have ever went though,thank u for ur accompany.I don’t know what u really think about,but Mr.white is a good person in my eyes,and i will try our best to help u,just like what I have done before.I don’t know whether or not there exist a word which define a relationship between ordinary friends and lovers,if there have one,I will use it to describe what we are.If I do not meet chen at that time,maybe we will not like this,forget this sentence when u have read it,it makes no sense at all for us now.I am glad that u choice Mr.white..a reliable child.Maybe u think me too high in ur mind,maybe I have never reach ur standard.U have made ur decision,so it is useless to judge whether or not it proves to be right as well as think about another chance to choice again,keep it and go on the life maybe the best solution to this question,as for others,I will keep my promise.U r my sister,maybe the only sister in few years later.There are so many unwilling in this world,but what we need is to adapt them.Ces't La Vie,our ideal life maybe only exist in another world,a parallel world.